Sunday, May 19, 2013

Sleepless Nights

It seems the older I get, and the more problems I try to iron out, the less sleep I get. I can't say the less sleep I need, because I probably need more sleep than the few hours I get each night, but I awaken suddenly, and there's no going back. So, i do my little ritual of going on my computer, checking my email, filtering through facebook, and writing if I am in the mood. My antenna comes in sometimes, and sometimes not, so whether it does or not determines whether I watch some tv or not. There's so much on my mind these days that my poor mind probably needs a break from thinking in my sleep! And yet, when I'm awake, it needs to sleep to get a break! Seems like a viscious cycle. I've always had a hard time sleeping, and my mom used to tell me to just lie in bed and relax, that my body would get rest that way, too. It never really seemed to make sense to me. I don't think there's anything more annoying than lying in bed and trying to fall asleep, but not being able to, and having your legs twitch, and being so uncomfortable you just toss back and forth.
So, here i am, at 5:54, typing away. I was up at 5, just in time to hear the birds start to chirp. For whatever reason, i don't seem to have as much trouble sleeping during the day! Do worries escape the daylight? My body feels tired, but my mind won't stop rambling on. I even sleep with a sound machine, and the crickets chirping, and it helps, but I still pop up in the middle of the night, rearing to go-to where i don't know.
Maybe i'll try to lie down and relax for a bit...I may be back!

Saturday, May 18, 2013

my kids

I Love My Kids

The birds start chirping at 4:45 a.m. every morning I hear them. I have been so wrapped up in the wrongs of my life that i can't sleep more than a couple of hours at a time. The middle of the night is now my best friend. There is silence except the birds singing their wake up songs. No one bothers me except my mind, which is overflowing with past regrets, mistakes made, and a longing to have my 3 children back in my life. Twenty years of revolving my life around caring for these once little ones, cleaning a big house, running errands, food shopping, clothes shopping, and car pooling back and forth to basketball and softball practices and games. Playing games, watching Disney movies, swimming down at our lake, or in the winter time, sleigh riding, baking cookies and cakes, making dinner, making sure homework was done, baths and showers taken, and bedtime secured. Where did the time go? All of a sudden, within three months, they were all gone. My partner played a part in them leaving, and the shame and guilt of not being strong enough at the time to step in, eats at my soul and brings tears on a daily basis. I was very ill with Crohn's, dehydrated, malourished, weak, and feeling as though I were dying. I had always been so strong and competent and handled everything I had to with a strength I could only have gotten from my Higher Power. Now, everything I lived for was gone. I know kids grow up and move out and begin their own lives, but I wasn't prepared for the quickness of their departure. I was divorced in 2006, and since then, I have not had a car or money of my own except in the past 6 months when i have received food stamps and cash assisstance and medicaid. I need to use a car service to get to my doctor's visits.
My world is turned inside out, and I can only hope that when I go for my SSI court date, i will recieve SSI and backpay, and i will be able to get a car, and have some independence and a way out of this house.
I never saw any of this coming, and at 56, I can't believe this is the way my life turned out. To be so strong and efficient and powerful all my life, and then to be so weak and dependent, is a nightmare I never imagined. I can only pray that after suffering for so long, and waiting for this court date for over 3 years, God may shine on me and lift me out of this abyss.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

I Am Thankful for The Gift of Reason

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My entire life has been making one decision or another. Always trying to read and listen, and therefore, continually applying what I’ve learned (to the most extent), to become a calmer and happier person. I’ve been through so much, from a childhood that was bazarre, but I love my parents, and worked through all the blame games. They have passed, but I still talk to them as if they were right in the same room, and I Believe they are!

No matter what I feel has been a major blowout in my life, I have been eventually able to reason my way back up. There was much pain, some emotional, some physical, and I had to reason my way through how others thought, therefore, reacted, so I wouldn’t keep getting my heart hurt, and soul hurt. I lived to be stronger and wiser, therefore happier and calmer. But to what affects? I could protect myself once I understood that not all was my fault. And I did come to see that!

In my 20’s, I went to the Landmark Education Forum for 3 days, and was introduced to the fact that just because your father says you are stupid, doesn’t necessarily make it so, and probably isn’t so! From there, I read books on Self Help, and in my forties, was involved with a twelve step program. I leaned how to think in a better, more productive, and more honest way. I stopped drinking, after having done so for 20 before. I finally understood what is was for me, anyway, to reason. Some people don’t.

They get mad and yell and scream, and throw things, break things, and generally go ballistic to anyone watching, when they get frustrated or angry. I know because those characteristics described me at different stages of my life. I tried to accumulate in my brain, all the knowledge I had read or seen on talk shows, etc. I also researched a lot on the Internet. I have always been interested in what made people tick, and better yet, how could I save them!?

Actually, some I was able to, some I couldn’t reach. I couldn’t "reason" at the time, what to say or do.

Or even how to think on different subjects. I kept absorbing more positive and spiritual avenues, and I started getting, what was to me, "better." I stay very calm now, no matter what has gone on to upset me. It doesn’t matter. If it did, I take care of it, but I notice how many times it matters! Stress will kill you, and I know that first hand as well. This past September, when I found myself in Cardiac Intensive Care because I was in Acute Renal Failure, I really began to think about my life in a better, simpler way.

It became clear to me that so much didn’t matter. Tools all over the floor, or spilt orange juice, or traipsing mud into the house, are all things I have gotten mad over. You know that didn’t end well! I taxed my heart, and it is catching up to me, if it isn’t past! I reasoned myself into deciding if I should give in, or go on. I’m here. The spilt orange juice is the last thing I would worry about.

After being diagnosed with Crohn’s, I was told it would be dangerous if I needed surgery at any time, because the wound might not heal, or the blood wouldn’t stop. I have had 2 operations since then, sustaining over one thousand stitches in 1,and both were successful, with no problems. Now, my heart wants to start acting up. I can choose how fast I want it to work, and how to keep it at a normal level. Of course, "reasoning " it out in my head had to occur and drawing on all of my experiences, for me to realize that the pettiness of life is so unnecessary, and takes up so much time, incurs so much anger, and bleeds negative energy.

Now I know it causes real physical problems. If I make a decision not to let something worry me like it once did, I am controlling whether or not my blood pressure go up. I know, of course, this isn’t always the case, but in mine, I think it is. My kidneys have failed and I am here, my blood pressure was 209, and something else that wasn’t good either. I am not a doctor or nurse, but even I knew that was high! I had 5 days of headaches last week, thinking but hoping not, that it was from the oil heat.

Nope. I can’t imagine what my blood pressure was then. Still, I reason that I could be very happy if I focus on the right things, and the right people, who add happiness to my life. God hasn’t taken me yet, so I reason that to mean I have more to do. I hope so, and I will try to do my best to accomplish whatever my job on this Earth is. I have no fear of death, I’d just really rather stay alive. I did not list all of my medical circumstances, to get encouragement, or any kind of praise.

I love my life and I know there are so many others that are suffering far worse. I copy pictures like the soldier dressed in his army uniform, accompanied by a picture of 90% of his body burnt by an explosive. I paste them into my documents, and look at them everyday. So, I try for them as well. I have no reason to want to die, and I want to do more, so we shall see. I'm trying to share my experience with just letting go of so much HEARTACHE, and focus on the things that matter most to you!

I also recognize what I have always believed in-if I hadn’t gone through situations in my life that didn’t kill me, but made me stronger, I wouldn’t be so free of emotional pain now, and so happy just to be me!

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Very nice article

» left by Deepti Apostle 173 days 22 hours ago.
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I must say you're very courageous lady. God Bless you!

» left by Susan Thom 173 days 18 hours ago.
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hi D,

my mom and dad were both very courageous, as were other family members, so i guess I got it from them, and my deep Faith in my Higher Power.

my best to you,

sue

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Mistakes Can Haunt Our Very Soul

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Posted: Tuesday, May 14, 2013

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I don't think any of us starts out knowing they are about to make a mistake. We usually want to think the best of people and situations. I think my biggest mistake was not spending enough time with my kids once they reached their teenage years. I spent 24/7 with them before they started pre first, and with their father being away 2 weeks out of the month, we were pretty much joined at the hip. It was hard juggling three kids and taking car of our home and pets and laundry and cooking and shopping and squeezing in time to watch movies and play games. We did puzzles and made lego sets and baked cupcakes and cakes, and in the summer, we went down to the lake behind our house and I taught them how to swim and we had a dock they jumped off of, and I brought baskets of snacks and juice. They also enjoyed fishing, and did so often.

They had each other to play with, so they were never bored or lonely. We had a big yard, and they could play for hours, whether it was baseball or football or catch or climbing trees. They each had their own rooms and life was good. They had nintendo systems and plenty of toys, and they were happy. I read to them, watch Disney movies, and taught them their abc's and numbers and how to spell their names. They sat at the kitchen table and drew pictures, something they were all good at. They didn't know any different, so I'm not sure they appreciated all they had, but they enjoyed life, and I was right there with them. With their father away, I had to take them shopping with me, and each week, we would go to K mart and they each got a small toy.

When they were 8, 11, and 13, their father and I separated, but he still came and stayed at the house so he could see the kids when he was off for 2 weeks. There was a lot of tension, but looking back, there really wasn't much I could do about that. I also don't think it was good for them that their father was away for 2 weeks. Again, nothing I could do about that. At least I was there 24/7, and I tried to do all I could to make them happy and well adjusted.

They all joined basketball and softball, so there was a lot of running around, and I went to all their games. I only missed the ones where 2 played at the same time, and then, I took turns each week. They really didn't want for much, and I enjoyed being a mother.

Once they reached 8,11, and 13, they became more independent. They spent more time in their rooms, and going to play at friends. I had a little more free time to myself and once I cleaned the house and did the laundry, I could watch tv, or relax on the couch. Now, they are 22, 25, and 27. They are all out on their own. I'd actually give anything to have them young once again. I miss seeing their faces, and I definitely miss hearing, "mom." They've each had problems they needed to work through, and I can't help but think that if I spent more time talking to them about life when they were in their early teens, they may have had an easier time in their 20's. But how far does motherhood reach?

When do we let our kids go so they can grow and learn how to make it on their own? Am I simply a mother with too much heart, who never wants their children to suffer or have problems that need to be solved? Am I blaming myself when they are simply living their own lives? Could I have done anything differently? Should I have done anything differently? Would I have done anything differently? I guess there's no way of knowing since the time is passed now. I can only hope that all I did talk to them about and all I did show them and tell them about life and honesty and integrity, was absorbed and is now being utilized.

I tried to instill in them all I thought was important and worthy to go by in this life. And then, there's the part to them that is what they have adapted through experiences and situations and relationships. I believe they will use what they learned to help them deal with life on life's terms. And I hope there's something in each of them that they incorporated from all I put into them as they were growing up. They're all good kids, and I'm very proud of them, I just wish I had given more to them in their teenage years.

　

　

　

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» left by Swapna Nanda 1 day 21 hours ago.
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Dear Ms. Susan,

According to my very little experience in Mothering, I dont think you did a mistake at all. letting go of the children have to happen at some point of life, Because as an adult you and me too have also flown out of the nest to seek new adventure and make new friends and new roles in life.

Please dont feel bad about it now. you have done your part and leave the rest to God. I think it is natural as a mother to feel anxious about our children all the time. please relax. and know that He is in control.

thank you for sharing your thoughts.

regards,

swapna

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» left by Susan Thom 1 day 12 hours ago.
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hi swapna,

ah, the trials and tribulations of motherhood, huh? we want to do our best, and sometimes, our best doesn't feel good enough. i do think they have a good foundation, and now it is up to them to figure out how to make the best of their lives.

thank you for reading and commenting,

i appreciate you taking the time,

my best,

sue

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» left by Megha Mallan 1 day 1 hour ago.
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A touching article yet again!!

I believe you are a superb mother Susan!!

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A Poem Of Emotions Or Truth

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Posted: Saturday, April 20, 2013

by Susan Thom^(10,682)

When your mind says no, but your heart says it's true,

What keeps you going, and what gets you through

When time is all you have and you can't think of anything else

What makes you continue, and what makes your heart pulse

Is it misguided feelings, or a love that has no bounds

Is it your mind making mistakes, or your conscience that sounds

Is God giving you a gift, or challenging your truths

Will you win all you want, or accept all you could lose

Is it chemistry and compassion while you're alive

Or is it a will that you cling to that wants to survive

Do the questions stay covered in the secret part of your soul

Or are your weaknesses simply content and controlled

Can you accept that tomorrow will bring more than today

Or do you wish that your nightmares would all go away

Do the prayers that you stutter lead you astray

Or does the God of your understanding, show you the way

Can you tell what is right, and what may be wrong

Does it take you forever to learn your own song

Do you want to believe what you think your heart feels

Can you maintain a calmness amidst all of the deals

Are the eyes that you see through open to the reality of life

Or will you placidly go forward with conflict and strife

Is it natural for you to feel so broken and lost

Or have all of your dreams merely been tossed

How long will you wait for the truth to be told

Will the answers come to you before you're too old

Must others teach you what you should understand

Or were friends created to hold on to your hand

Is it you or the world that just can't get it straight

Or will you listen to your conscience before it's too late

What road will you take and what path will you choose

Before all is taken, and you must accept what's to loose

Opening yourself up to the world might not have been right

Will you give in quietly, or stick around for the fight

Can things change over night, as the rain and the wind

Or have you quite readily turned toward the sins

What is your future, what will your message become

Have you thought all things through, before you become numb

Emotions or truth, what will it be

Do you even know what it is your heart sees

You are worth all God wanted, and more if you try

When all seems to crumble, just look towards the sky

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» left by Megha Mallan

25 days 21 hours ago.
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SIMPLY SUPERB!!!

Susan I loved it!!! every word of it...

God Bless!!

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» left by Susan Thom 25 days 16 hours ago.
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thank you megha,

i seem to write poems, or similar to poems, when i am in a deep crisis....tends to touch the soul more.

i try to bring out what i am feeling, and then, i seem to be able to let it go easier.

i so appreciate you reading and your kind words.

my best to you,

sue

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» left by David Tanguay

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Very well done Susan, see you can do poetry can't you?

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» left by Susan Thom 25 days 14 hours ago.
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hi david,

ha-i guess so-too bad my heart and soul have to be torn apart to do so!

comes naturally then :)

thanks for reading and commenting,

my best to you always,

sue

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So, there's a poetess in you, eh? Why am I NOT surprised, dear Sue! This is great!! I loved ALL of it, especially the last two lines. I will keep looking to the sky...the hills where my helps comes! Blessings and much love to you, my friend.

Avis!

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» left by Susan Thom 25 days 14 hours ago.
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hi missy,

thanks for reading, and the beautiful comment.

and thanks for the love, i can feel it always, and i sure as Hell :) can use the blessings! :)

love,

sue

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» left by Avis Ward 25 days 14 hours ago.
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You're so welcome. I meant every word and it gives me *warm fuzzies* to know you feel the sincerity of my heart, as I do love you. I need all the blessings that are mine, for sure... and NOW! :)

We'll hang in there because we have our HOPE where it should be placed.

Love,

Avis

Thank YOU, Sue. *hugs with love*

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I'm not much for poetry, Sue, but I have to tell you that I really enjoyed this.

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» left by Susan Thom 25 days 9 hours ago.
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hi marlin,

i don't write much poetry, although i used to when i was a teen and in my 20's. i write poetry when my heart and soul hurts, and my mind can form the words that hopefully tell the story better than an article would.

i'm so glad you read it, and thank you for liking it, and commenting,

my best to you always,

sue

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» left by Jennifer Stewart

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Phew, Sue, this is a very moving poem. I know these conflicts. You've articulated so clearly things that are really hard to express.

I'm very sorry about your car. How did it happen?

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» left by Susan Thom 23 days 11 hours ago.
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long story....

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» left by Rain Stickland

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Awesome! Like Marlin, I'm not much for poetry. Very rarely do I read any, and very rarely does it affect me, but I read this and it affected me, so good job!

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» left by Susan Thom 22 days 20 hours ago.
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thanks Rain,

i don't often write poetry :)

this, however got 1,018 page views so far...go figure...

talk to you later, thanks for reading and commenting, i appreciate it,

my best,

sue

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I like this Sue- A cathartic translation of human emotions in all their verities

and shifts- vibrant. Thanks-Always Ella

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hi Ella,

thank you for reading and your great comment.

that's me-verities and shifts :)

my best to you,

sue

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Thank you so much, it is both beautiful and thoughtful and touched my soul.

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hi michele,

i appreciate you reading and commenting.

sometimes, the best words come from the soul.

my best to you,

sue

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Patience Is My Only Friend Until We Can Be Together Again

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I was not only a stay at home mom, but I was alone for 2 weeks out of the month with my kids while their father worked on an oil boat in another state. This meant I was with my little ones 24/7 for the first 5 years of their lives. Taking care of infants around the clock, and cleaning the house, and doing the shopping, and paying the bills, took it's toll. However, I had wanted to have kids since I was 12 years old. I couldn't wait to give them all the love and attention I lacked growing up, having a distant father to say the least. My mom was always there for us, but she worked as a nurse, so her lifestyle was different than mine.

I not only took physical care of my kids, but mental as well, I made sure they had what they needed, and we played games, watched movies, did puzzles, made lego sets, swam in our lake everyday during the summer, and I taught them all the things one teaches their kids. How to ride a bike, go to the bathroom on their own, eat on their own, get dressed by themselves, and I taught each of them how to swim. We started with life jackets, then moved on to swimmies, and eventually I got in the lake with them and taught them how to swim on their own. I had every Disney movie out at the time, and rest time was all of us lying on the couch or floor and enjoying the beautiful colors and morals of Disney.

I taught them how to color within the lines, write their names, their abc's, and their numbers. I was a cuddler, so there usually was one or more of my kids lying on the floor or couch with me. I never wanted them to leave the nest. I couldn't walk by them without giving them a hug or kisses that would seemingly never end. Eventually, they all joined basketball and softball, and I went to all of their games. I enjoyed watching every minute of their sports, and was so proud when they caught a ball, made a basket, hit a home run or pitched a no hitter. Pride was always brimming in my heart and soul.

Then, 4-5 years ago, they were all out on their own. My daughter joined the army, my son joined the air force, and came home from Germany married, and my youngest boy moved in with his girlfriend.

They were just gone. I no longer saw them everyday. The pain was so intense. I cried every day for a long time, and still cry whenever I think about them, or their absence in my life. It was as if a huge part of my soul was ripped away, and my heart ached on a daily basis. It still does. Eighteen years of bonding flew out the window. For them, anyway, never for me. I can't even look at their pictures because when I do, my heart rips open a little more.

I know of some women who couldn't wait for their kids to step out on their own. They happily anticipated having their freedom back, being able to shop without little ones tagging along, no more car seats and holiday preparations, no more sitting in the sun for hours watching softball games. However, that was not me. I never wanted any of that to end. I wasn't created to enjoy my independence from my kids, and it kills me that time goes on, and I don't see them. My soul is now a bottomless pit, and the pain in my heart is real. The life that I loved is gone, and there's no one to kiss and hug. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about my little family, and cry over the loss I feel.

I can only hope and pray that someday, they'll come back into my life and I can feel whole once again. I've had physical and mental ailments that prevent me from working, and I know it doesn't help that I have nothing to keep myself busy and absorb some of the loneliness I feel. Patience is my only friend until I can be a part of their lives once again. I would say the adjustment has been difficult, but I haven't adjusted. Pain and longing is a deep and powerful feeling. I only hope that too much time doesn't pass before we can be together again.

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» left by Megha Mallan

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Susan..I can feel the pain....

I hope you get your family back!!

God Bless!!

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» left by Susan Thom 1 day 2 hours ago.
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hi megha,

thank you for reading and commenting. i hope someday, we will be together again.

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Steve Kovacs

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Touching article, Sue. Sorry.

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» left by Susan Thom 1 day 2 hours ago.
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hi steve,

thanks.

i'm not being notified i have comments, so sorry for the delay.

things happen for a reason-i wrote this article and my youngest son sent me a nice letter for mother's day. go figure.

it definitely made my day, and week, and month, year and millenium :)

thank you for reading and commenting,

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Hilda Cang

5 days 23 hours ago.
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You're pouring your sorrow out, Sue. Please cry and release and see, the world is still there although your children are somewhere else. Don't worry too much. You have your life to live on.

I am the type of woman you mentioned here = can't wait to get back my freedom. Can't wait for the kids to go away. But you know what, the more I want my husband and daughters to stay 12' away from me, the more they want to come nearer to me. I wonder why, why do they need me so fondly ? I think they can't live a day without me. Now, my 4 years old granddaughter is another one, so sticky to me. If we are out for a few hours, she will ask her mother to ring me.

" Po Po, why don't you pick up the phone ? Where are you ? When are you coming back ?....................................."

I am fortunate my husband is a loving man. Amen.

Sue, can you do some exercise such as stretching your arms high like you want to catch the moon and move all your body parts at least 10 - 15 mins a day ? This helps a lot to relax our mind.

Cheer up, Sue !

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» left by Susan Thom 1 day 2 hours ago.
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hi hilda,

i'm not getting my comment notifications, so sorry for the delay..i only checked after i got your e mail.

yes, i will try the exercise.

i am going for my SSI court hearing on june 24th, and if i get it, i'll be able to get a car and have some spending money, and i know that will make me feel better. right now i am stuck at home and can't go anywhere i want.

thank you for reading, commenting, and caring,

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Hilda Cang 1 day 1 hour ago.
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Know that you're okay then everything is okay.

Keep going.

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» left by Swapna Nanda 5 days 20 hours ago.
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You have been a wonderful mother and friend to your children and I am sure you will soon find peace and strength to overcome the loneliness too. Take care and keep writing. I am loving the way you write.

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» left by Susan Thom 1 day 2 hours ago.
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hi swapna,

i appreciate your comments, they are very kind. i will continue writing, it is a passion of mine, and i don't ever see me stopping. i'm glad you enjoy what you read.

thank you for reading and commenting,

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Brianna Popsickle

5 days 8 hours ago.
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There's no job more important than that of a mother (and fathers too). Sounds like you have no regrets, that you gave 100% to fulfilling your role as a mom. Your children have taken that with them Sue, and they will remember the swimming lessons, and Disney movies. They'll pass it on to their own children, by being the parent you taught them to be. The purpose of raising a child is to watch them become independent, that's the best gift we can give them. You've done that! When miles separate us it makes it difficult and I'm sure Mother's Day will be especially difficult for you if you're apart. Hugs to you. But don't ever undervalue what you gave your kids. - all the best - Brianna

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» left by Susan Thom 1 day 2 hours ago.
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thank you brianna-words of wisdom for sure. i honestly wish we were watching those disney movies again! i hope to reconnect at some time.

thank you for reading and commenting, your words are always appreciated,

my best to you,

sue

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» left by Iris Taub

4 days 21 hours ago.
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Your children are spreading their wings, but the memories you created with them will live forever. I am sure it is difficult when you have so much time on your hands to reflect on the past and those special moments you cherish!

Just remember the cycle of life, you gave your children the tools to leave the nest, to make their own adventures and embrace life! They are young, longing to see what this big wide world has to offer them.

When your are feeling blue and clinging onto the past, reach down inside yourself and reflect on those happier times when they were young and there was plenty of cuddle time!

Raising a family is a challenge to say the least, the hardest part is knowing when it is time to let go and let them make their own mistakes and find their own path. Just let them know you are always there for them physically and emotionally if they need you!

Now is the time to take care of yourself. I can personally relate to the physical limitations associated with disability. Just take a deep breath and take it one day at a time, one step at a time and one task at a time!

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hi iris,

thank you for your wise words and for taking the time to say them. i hope to get disability in june, and get a car and be more mobile, and i think that will make a difference. it's hard being stuck in the house. i will try to take it one day, one step, and one task at a time.

thank you for reading and commenting,

my best to you,

sue

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